Insatiable April, trees in place,
in their scraped-out place,
Their red branch areas,
green shoot areas (shock),
river, that one.
I surprised a goose and she hissed.
I walk and walk with cold hands.
Back at the house it is filled with longing,
nothing to carry longing away.
I look back over my life.
I try to find analogies.
There are none.
I have longed for people before, I have loved people before.
Not like this.
It was not this.
Give me a world, you have taken the world I was.
Actually not. Feigned leap into–
river glimpsed through bare
[some noun] for how thought breaks up around your not here
your clothes not wet in this deep mirror–
what Hoelderlin calls die Tageszeichen, signs
scored into the soul by the god of each day
you answer scars, I still don’t know–
years from now, these
notations in the address book, this frantic hand.